[ StAy CuTe ]

2007-03-04T04:56:00.000-08:00

hi ppL...i veri long nv bLog le...miss mi rite...ha ha...i was kinda haggard tis few days cos studying non-stop..reach home by 5 den study til 12pm so ya....except for fri and sat...sUndae...stay at home and study...i jus dUn wan stupid grades in my o'level result slip if not...i think realli can prepare a white coffin for mi le....drop to combined science...haiz...sad but if i can get a better result wif this...why not...?

2007-01-13T07:35:00.000-08:00

duNNo wads happening...but anyway...i dUn give a damn cos the onli thing i noe now is to STUDY FOR O'LEVEL...cannot waste tym...the rest of the things...i m not in the mood care abt it...
went out wif sye mun n crystal to kbox todae...quite fun...sing sing sing...den aft tat went to bugis...meet jie pin and francis...ltr chong ee n gary...
took neoprints wif sye mun n crystal...

2006-12-18T10:06:00.000-08:00

feeling damn fucking sian now...i hav ruin someone's life jus bcos of a stupid little thing of mine...n now there is nthing i can do to help...KANNINA JI BYE!!!...wad the hell m i doing n thinking at tat tym sia...fucking du lan wif myself now...

2006-12-17T20:09:00.000-08:00

last two days was tiring...was doing ritual for two funerals...sat was in tampinese while sun in seng kang...the one in tampinese came out to b my aunts' frens and the one in seng kang was jackies's grandma...i m actually doing ritual for my fren grandma...wad a small world...i hope it doesn't happen agn...

gonna work tml le...now tat i m busy wif work...homework n attending to funerals stuff...i hav no more energy to think abt bgr...
sometym i think i m jus trying to make myself damn busy n tired so tat i wun't think abt all those things but wadever it is...i m jus trying to b happie...

2006-12-09T06:53:00.000-08:00

wasn't in good mood tis few days...as u guys can see...i may b laughing but the veri next moment my heart sank...there was once...i broke dwn when working...i cried..LiLeng saw it...but stil i have to clean my face n put on a fake smile cos i m working...costomers saw mi,my eyes and nose red...they asked if i m ok...i said i m having a flu...
i tried hard but i jus can't seems to get somethings out of my mind...frankly...i miss those happy times...everything seems to b so beautiful...when i tot of these...my heart aches n i wanna cry...

there isn't anything i can do now...i had made tat decision...i follow through it...hope time wil help to fade all the feelings away...hope tat i realli is able to b tat happie crystal u guys used to hang out wif agn...hope tat i wUn b crying agn for the rest of the time...dunno why i m so useless...tis is the first tym i cried so mani tym for the same reason...haiz...

2006-11-29T19:50:00.000-08:00

tats the end of the fireworks...i m back to the single world...welcome mi back fren...i m glad tat no matter wad happen...u guys are always wif mi...esp all my sisters n brothers...thx

this relationship wif gid...i brought up lots of courage to make it a start...so as to end it...yup...everytym tis kinda things happens...my heart aches...it hurts n i cried...however u guys are always there for mi...n i wil alway remember tis words tat u guys hav said to mi "jus follow wads ur heart says...no matter wad decision u made...we wil support u n be there for u" and true enuf...they always are there for mi...

something once done cannot b undone...yup...i felt so sorry for myself,being such an idiot...but wad can i do?...i brought myself to tis stage...i gonna face it myself...i wil stay strong and happy...jus like the usual crystal tan kai li.

2006-11-25T08:44:00.000-08:00

went to cut my hair todae...bet wif my mum...sh

e sae if i dare to tel the auntie to do wadever she want, she wil pay for mi...since i got no money...i agree...n i end up wif...

not veri use to my hair standing...but since wadever done cannot b undone...i wil try to get use to it lo....

2006-11-24T07:21:00.000-08:00

felt bored in the shop...no customers soOoo....

guess wad i start playing wif...sHHhh....dUn tel boss...ha ha...

2006-11-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

yesterdae...didn't end the day nice...cash short...didn't noe is whose fault so everyone fork out money to top in...sian...top in 11 bucks=2 hour work gone...anyway to dae is good...everythings fine...wOOo...everydae loOk at those beautiful accessories...omg...i wan them so much...waiting for my pay day...wil but for some of my frens n myself ba...i think...ha ha....
anyway...some pics mi n sOp toOk after work...

2006-11-17T18:02:00.000-08:00

working is fun...yesterday my shift was wif sye mun the whole day....
met...gays[i think]...and some shuai ge...ha ha...
was a little irritated by the glass door bcos no matter how i push n pull...it jus dUn move...mayb i nid to pratice more...and the next thing is the cashier...wasn't veri familiar wif the keyboard n stuff so always kept the customers waiting...i m so sorry abt tat...

to yOu: i felt bad after sending tat msg...tats why i called u once i reach home after work...
i m sry dar...

2006-11-14T02:24:00.000-08:00

yeah ! tomolo start work le....finally...10am to 10pm at vivo...
now i m at sye mun hse...she is bathing n i got nthing better to do so post lo...
2 days nv see my laso gong le...seriously miss him...too bad la...he working ma...

to yOu: if u get a chance to read tis...take care dar...rest well...love you always....muacks...

2006-11-13T06:37:00.000-08:00

haiz....todae no work so slp till 1.30pm den wake up...tomolo no work olso...SO SIAN....stay at home slack...go out no money...no life...
anyway...todae went to meet iris at dhoby mrt den went to takashimaya to find sop...we had a difficult tym trying to get the the shop...and when we found the shop...sop went out for dinner...so...iris n mi start fooling arnd in the toys department....iris bought mi n sop extra early christmas gifts...actually...is i ask for it de...ha ha...

sop christmas present frm iris....me....and my christmas present frm iris......
tats not soft toy...its speaker....cute hor...ha ha....thx iris...muacks...love u...

2006-11-10T03:50:00.000-08:00

yeah...got my job le...waiting for boss to call n tel mi the shift...woo...
next week start work...$5 per hour...full shift everyday except sundae...
guess wouldn't be able to pei my fren n my lao gong le...sob sob...

2006-11-09T21:59:00.000-08:00

going for an interview later...hope i can get the job...

2006-11-04T06:35:00.000-08:00

oYa...forgot abt yesterdae...went to bugis wif eugene, syemun, min hui, don, sam, jasmine, yi fang, rong li and jill...we walk n walk n walk...they bought quite alot of stuff...i onli buy a pair of ear studs...ha ha...n took a few photos wif didi [jill]....

eeek...my hair so messy...

we loOk cooL...don't we...ha ha

2006-11-04T06:05:00.000-08:00

woke up at 5am tis morning...send gid to bus-stop...after tat went home slp...
ltr...woke up at 7am...went to the bus-stop to pass designs to Don...went home n slp agn...
woke up at 9.30am, bath n went to compass point to pass eugenze calculator n compass...went home n slp agn....ha ha

woke up at 1.30pm...bath and went to bus-stop to meet sam n went to pasir ris to meet gid...
went to the old folks home wif them...its nice...i dUn mind goin there agn...ha ha...

after tat...came back to hougang...gave gid the present...suppose to give on 09/11/06 de but since his lighter is not working...might as well give him now...ha ha...

to yOu: hope tat u like the the 3rd month anniversary present i gave u...giving u tat present doesn't mean i encourage u to smoke more...i jus think tat it loOk nice plus...even if i nv buy for u...u olso wil get one urself...ha ha...
dar...its time to cut down liao la...dUn wait till it is too late...i love u n i duN wanna lose u...take care...muacks...

2006-11-02T00:19:00.000-08:00

"Eternal Flame"

Close your eyes
Give me your hand
Darling, do you feel
My heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?
Is this burning?
An eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be darling
I watch you when you're sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

But is this burning (burning)?
An eternal flame
Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life so lonely
Then come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Oh
Oh, oh

Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life so lonely
Now come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Oh

Close your eye
sGive me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Or is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Or is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
(Ooh yeah yeah)
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

2006-11-02T00:01:00.000-08:00

after school went to eat pizza hut wif jill n jie pin...jill pay the least amount but eat the most...aiYOYO...
came home...all wet bcos of the heavy rain...my er zi is wet olso...nid to bath him liao...so dirty...everyday kana tortured by his dad, uncles n aunties...so ke lian...i see liao xin tong lei...sob sob...i m going to bath him wif my body foam [Johnson baby milk bath] so tat he wil smell like mi...ha ha...

2006-11-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

sometimes when u tel mi something i may seems like i dUn care but actually deep down inside i do care...
i jus pretend that i dUn care bcos...firstly...i know i can't do anything abt it...secondly...i trust u...

2006-10-31T06:03:00.000-08:00

my nails...i did it myself todae...the pic can't see clearly but its nice...i drew the flower wif toothpicks...clever hor...[bhb]...ha ha...dUn feel like washing off but tomolo got schOOl...sob sob...nvm...i wil do it on my aunt finger ltr...ha ha...

2006-10-26T21:51:00.000-07:00

jus woke up...was really veri tired...partly bcos of the camp i guess...

the camp was boring...only cleaning up the kitchen, pitching 2 ten-men tent and eating...todae was supposed to go for the camp agn for canoeing but cher forgot to boOk a bus to send us there...so sian...

came home yesterdae at arnd 6 or 7 plus...bath and received a sms frm sop saying mrs ang called her mum and complain abt lots of things...haix...next thing i receive a call frm gid sayin tat the same teacher called up her mum too...haiYo...dunno wad is her prob...her call upset everyOne...

my form teacher called my mum the day b4...saying my results drop and blah blah blah...i was veri upset abt tat cos those who noe mi n sophia...we were once top 5% scholar and now teacher hav to call and complain abt our result...it disappointed our parents, teachers and lots of ppl who love us...how could i let this kinda things happen...it hurt my mum and dad...
i expect them to b angry and come screaming to mi...they didn't...instead my mum console me while i was crying...if they scold mi, mayb i will feel better....

i'm sorry...i wil work harder next tym...

2006-10-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

found a photo taken when i was 5 or 6 years old....

past:

present:

so cute rite...aiYo..so not like the present mi sia...ha ha

2006-10-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

from jackie's blog....

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

i didn't blame anyone for it...its my fault olso...i broke my promise to someone i loved so much...tats wad bothering mi...

2006-10-20T04:35:00.000-07:00

i m still at jillson's hse wif sOp,jie pin,seng guan and jackie....ha ha...was here since afternoon...fell asleep,woke up and went to play basketball...nthing better to do...slacking arnd now while sop watch gong and the rest in jillson's room playing xbox...since i got nthing better to do...jus write a post ba...LOL...

2006-10-17T07:31:00.000-07:00

went to sch for a course todae...it was boring...got sabo to put out fire wif a fire extinguisher...its heavy la...cos i sprying halfway at the fire the fire extinguisher finish so they chgn to a full one for mi...wao lao...almost drop it...stil manage to put out the fire in the end...its not onli heavy...its cold olso...veri veri cold...

got home at arnd 4 and....TM agn...wanted to catch a movie but all the timing sux so mi n gid stared walking aimlessly in TM agn...we had a great tym in toy 'r us [duNNo how to spell]...throwing balls all arnd trying to wack each other...ltr gid start to play wif a little boy...so cute...i mean the boy...gid is too huge to be cute...LOL...ha ha...

k veri tired le...i go rest..tomolo mus wake up at 5am agn...firstly to wake gid up and next is to meet sOp they all in RP for breakfast...actually i dUn plan to eat but jus go for fun...ha ha...

2006-10-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

wOke gid up at 5am...accompany him to the bus-stop and came home to slp...yawns*...
slp all the way to arnd 11 plus got onto the com and through msn my cousins told mi that the blogskin they designed for mi is ready...the blog is nice n sweet but abit not for mi cos music and mi...NO LINK...but anyway i wil stil use it cos they spent whole nite doing for mi ya...thx gals...

went to TM wif gid in the noon...got back at arnd 6 plus...arnd 15 min ltr receive a sms from sye mun saying...met us at TM...i m like WAO LAO...i jus got back frm there...haiYo...so i went to TM agn to meet them and for gid...he pon his tuition and came to meet us...such a GOOD boy rite...ha ha...after everyOne gather we took a bus to puggol park...duNNo which idiot come out wif this idea...so ya...i waste my money travelling frm hougang to TM...frm TM to hougang den frm hougang to TM and back to hougang...wad a nice dae of travelling....
it was fun in puggol park...playing blind mice...it sound lame but we got nothing else better to do...ha ha...

my last words b4 i slp....HAPPY BIRTHDAE SYE MUN N YI FANG...ALL THE BEST TO THE TWO OF U...I LOVE U...TAKE CARE...MUACKS!

2006-10-14T00:48:00.000-07:00

jus woke up....so tired and sleepy...*yawns....
yesterdae went to celebrate seng guan's birthdae...meet up wif gid, sg, jiepin, fa lun, zai xing and sam at cp...den we head off to TM...me,sg,gid,sam n jie pin go eat seoul garden...so full...

oya...sg got a piercing on his ear...everyOne including his frens[didn't noe their name] help him pay...ha ha

duNNo whether the hole got close ma...cos he took out too fast n we can't find the back hole...gid, mine n jie pin hand all got his blood...
wad a bloody birthdae for sg...LOL!..JK

sOp running away frm the camera...

3 idiots...

2006-10-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

yeah...exam finish liao...though stil got art on fri but at least art no nid study....ha ha...
wishin n praying tat the whole class wil get promoted...we may b the noisiest class but when it cUm to exam...we really did study hard...

todae went out wif gid to town and met his frens...his frens are nice ppl...friendly...
admit tat i veri quiet cos not use to it ma plus veri veri tired...nv slp wel for duNNo hw mani nites...so ya...

to yOu: dar, i m sry...i shouldn't b so....[i olso duNNo how to sae]...i understand but its jus...anyway no matter wad happen...i wil stil lOve yOu and stay by ur side...

2006-10-08T20:12:00.000-07:00

2 months le...i didn't prepare any present...and he didn't prepare any olso cos we both noe tat it is exam tym n sitting down and study well wil b the best present for both of us...
remember i said...
we wil b like the fireworks..although it may not b forever, it wil stil be beautiful....
and yup...the fireworks are still glowing bright and lets be as beautiful as we can be...

Happy anniversary dar...always loving yOu.Muacks!

2006-10-06T00:16:00.000-07:00

got a fuuni feeling inside of mi...n i dUnno why i feel tis way...haiz

2006-09-23T21:39:00.000-07:00

yup...got my prize yesterdae...100 dollar to share between mi n yi fang...haiYo...but sctually the money dosen't matter la...winning the competition make mi veri happie liao...last nite gid wasn't wif mi...a little not use to it...miss him lots....nv see him for arnd 12 hrs le...haiz.....
k la...lets not tOk abt this...lets loOk at pics of yesterdae presentation...

loOk noob but no choice la...gotta wear like tat...

MUacks!!!

2006-09-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

got up late todae...rush to sch..heng..nv late...haha..played bball during PE...my ke lian de finger kana hit by the ball...wao...pain sia...but stil continue to play...ha ha...by the end of PE, my finger is swollen and now it stil is...the shape of my finger loOk weird...ha ha...it can't move anyway...
gave hao zhi his birthdae present todae...we gave him the billabong pencil case we bought yesterdae and gid gave him the bus plates...we tot hao zhi wil like the pencil case but the truth is, he seems to appreciate the bus plates more den the pencil case...wad the hell...
the thing i like best abt going to sch...the 4 of us [gid,mi,sop and hao zhi] sitting at the back of the class in the corner...ha ha...eating during lesson, playing, fooling around...sometyms the four laugh too loud til the whole class including teacher turn to loOk at us...ha ha...anyway...we stil do our work and TRY OUR BEST to pay attention in class...ha ha...
todae got no CCA, no extra lesson after sch...yeah!...gid,manfred,don,nathson, start playing ji ko ba...ha ha...after tat i played heart attack wif them n found out tat i m a retard...omg...haiz...my hand kana hit everytym n my finger...aiYo...gid ask mi dUn play and ya i stop playing cos firstly my finger hurts next i dUn understand wad the hell we playing...k i noe i no childhood...ha ha...i dUn even noe how to play ji ko ba...
k going back to do my homework n revise for exam...so guai rite...ha ah

2006-09-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

so sad sia...failed my e math CA...wasn't in good mood and vented my fustration on hao zhi...sry brother...sry...told my mum the CA result and she say the same stupid things to mi again...
ha ha...
went to CP wif gid today to buy hao zhi birthday present.hope he like it.after tat came home den wrote chemistry chpt 17 notes for hao zhi cos he sae he dUn understand...k la...i go tOk to my lao gong liao...bye ppl...

tO yOu: dar...didn't blame u todae...no matter wad...i wil stil lOve u...muacks!

2006-09-19T05:37:00.000-07:00

aiYo...my ke lian de aunt saw a perverted guy tis morning...
she was on her way to work den saw tis guy at her block looking at her...tat guy unzip his pants and start playing wif his....[you noe wad la hor]....yuck! my aunt got scared and look away...trying to avoid him...after a while, my aunt turn back to see if he is still there...wao lao...he was standing jus infront of my aunt, still playing if his thing...
my aunt took out her phone and tat guy run away....
heard frm neighbours tat my aunt wasn't the onli one who saw him...ha ha
anyway my aunt made a police report....

an interesting thing to blog abt ar...ha ha...tis is the most interesting thing to mi for todae...ha ha...lol....k going back to study...doing a math fys...

2006-09-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

todae is definitely not a nice day to mi...wasn't in good mood for the whole day den still kana scolded by cher. in the afternoon dunno why suddenly got such a big headache...wao lao...
came home after a math extra lesson, bath, felt better but stil having headache...wanna rest also cannot, must prepare speech for tomolo...so sian...
i write this post not bcos i got nthing better to do...there are lots of work waiting for mi since there is physics and chinese tests tomolo. i write this post to vent a bit of my frustration. didn't noe why i m in such a bad mood todae....jus dUn feel right.

to yOu: didn't feel veri well todae and wasn't in a good mood so look veri sian todae. i wasn't angry or sad bcos of u...dUn worry...i was jus irritated by my stupid headache...i wil take good care of myself so dUn worry k...u mus take good care of urself olso...love u...muacks.

2006-09-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

thx dar...thx for chgning the blogskin for mi...i lOve u...muacks...

2006-09-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

wOn the competition...came in third...so happy...screamed in class...ha ha...
dUnno wad prize we gonna get...win i happy liao...
thx Yi Fang n Madam Lian...muacks!

tO yOu: i understand wad u mean...i nid to pei my frens olso...i m oK wif u going out wif ur frens even gals n i trust u...though i feel jealous sometym, i stil choose to trust u...wadever it is............ i will still lOve yOu dar...ALWAYS...

2006-09-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

haiz...yesterdae..i mean jus now was scary...
mi n gid was in the living room watching dawn of the dead...
den we hug n my bro came out of his room n saw us...haiz...
guess i wouldn't have to hide this frm my family anymore....
i didn't want them to noe bcos i didn't want my mum to start imagining things n start to worry abt mi...
all my frens out there know we aren't doing anything across the border right...but my mum isn't by my side all the tym..she dosen't noe n dUn understand...try tOking to her?...tried before...if u noe wad i m trying to sae...

2006-09-09T04:37:00.000-07:00

yeah!...todae...090906...1 month le...so happy...
made a handphone/mp4 pouch for gid...hope he like it...
he got a key chain for me...i like it alot...thx dar....muacks

to yOu: dar...thx for the key chain...i love it n i love u lots too...muacks! hugs....

2006-09-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

so we didn't do our work the whole night...ha ha...at least manage to do quite a bit la...
we watch INCREADIBLES...ha ha...but i went back to my work while gid n my bro continue to watch...when my bro finally decided to go to bed...i stopped doing my work n watch the movie wif gid...mmm...after the movie...gid fell asleep...guess he is too tired cos he is sick n i was the idiot tat passed the germs to him...haiYo...so i cover the blanket for him n took out his specs...
after tat i went back to my room to slp...can't stay outside wif him if both of us are slping...jus in case we end up hugging each other early in the morning n my family come out frm their room...tat is going to start a world war...so NO NO...ha ha...
woke up early tis morning...woke up? early?...did i even slp...ha ha...throat veri itchy...keep coughing...was trying to control my cough the whole night so tat i would't disturb gid n my family members...haiz...when i can't control anymore..i start coughing non-stop so i went to my "kitchen" n drank warm water...it helps for a while...didn't wanna take gid's strepstils cos he nid them...after tat came out to the living room n check on gid...jus to make sure the blanket is stil on him n he is stil on the matteress...
went back to my room n lie on the bed til my phone wake mi up[alarm]...stopped the alarm n continue to lie on my bed cos my phone is 10min faster...i think i fell asleep...until i heard gid's alarm ringing...went to the living room n wake him up...cos alarms are useless stuff to him...ha ha...

long tym never sae i loVe all my frens liao...to all my frens and everyone related to mi...i Love u...

n of cos my da zhu zhu/hamster/elephant/hippo/bear/....n errr....err...aiYa everything la...my everything...ha ha...take care...i loVe yOu...always...

2006-09-06T04:19:00.000-07:00

haiYo...until now i stil haven't touch any of my work...slack sia...
NVM...i wil do them todae...i try..LOL

anyway...was wif gid almost everynight...
in my hse de living room...
ha ha...so nthing tat u guys think happen k...
we are pure n innocent...LOL...ha ha
the things we did are watch movies...watch movies n continue to watch movies...
oya...when he fell asleep one of the night, i put the string of his jacket back for him...
he was loOking for the string early in the morning the next day...
he didn't notice it was back in his jacket...ha ha
anyway tonight wil b diff...we wil do hmwk n do hmwk n do hmwk...[i hope]...
too bad la...2 slackers...wad u expect...ha ha

to yOu: i wil try my best to get well soOn...alreadi feeling much better now...n you mus take care olso k...everytym i see you suffer...no matter bcos of wad...my heart aches...i m afraid tat i wil lose you jus like tat...realli realli veri scared...feel like i m a jinx...if i realli m i rather stay away frm you so tat u wouldn't need to suffer...i just hope tat you wil b healthy n happy...
i love you...always...

2006-09-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

sorry ppl...lazy to post...
yesterdae went to gid hse...saw his parents n kana "interview"...lol...
tat is so NOT FAIR...when gid come my hse my family olso nv "interview" him...
anyway...after gid parents interview i felt a little worried cos we are frm diff religion...
this was one of the many reasons why my last relationship ended...i m afraid tat history will repeat...
i told gid abt this n wad he said realli make mi feel better...

to yOu: yOu like to ask mi did i ever regret saying yes...
my answer to tat question wil always b NO...i never wil regret saying yes...
and one of the happiest thing tat happened in my life is when i found out tat ...iloVe yOu...

2006-08-12T08:34:00.000-07:00

the things yOu said really touch my heart...
tats is realli veri sweet of yOu...
i can't put words into nice sentences so i wil jus keep it simple...
i lOve yOu...

2006-08-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

was out whole day[from 09/08/06 afternOoN to 10/08/06 mOrning]....zZz...SO SLEEPY....
was attach to yOu on 09/08/06 during the fireworks...like wad i sae....
we are are like the fireworks...we may nOt last forever but we will definitely be beautiful....
lOve ya...

2006-08-07T06:04:00.000-07:00

feel veri sad after seeing yOu being so restless todae...wanna help but duNNo wad to do...i nOe the onli way to help is to giv yOu the final answer...but i m still not ready...i try veri hard to give yOu the answer but the past held mi back agn n agn...it is not tat i dUn trust yOu, i trust yOu but everytym the answer jus go back into mi instead of going out to u.....i guess yOu hav to suffer a while more... soOrie for driving yOu crazy...n sorry for making fUn of the "DuNNo"....i know it mean alot to yOu...promise i wil answer as soon as possible oK...jia you...

2006-08-04T21:41:00.000-07:00

i m thinking...i realli m....my mind is full of yOu but....i m jus afraid to start bcos...yOu...including all my fren arnd shld noe why.....

2006-08-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

[[ Don't Say YOu Love Me ]]

Got introduced to yOu my friend
YOu were cute and all that, baby yOu set the trend
Yes yOu did oh
The next thing I know were down at the cinema
We're sitting there, yOu said yOu loved me
What's that about?

YOu're moving too fast, I don't understand yOu
I'm not ready yet, bAby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell yOu to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...

Don't say yOu love me
YOu don't even know me
If yOu really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there bAby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say yOur heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Here's how I play, here's where yOu stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell yOu twice
Take it slow, yOu keep pushing me
YOu're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, nana, na, na, na, na, naoooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, nana, na, na, na, na, na, na
Don't say yOu love me
YOu don't even know me baby...
BAby don't say love me, baby
Give me some time...

here's the lyrics of the song [[ dOn't saY yOu lOve mE ]]
this is hOw i feeL...
eSp the chorUs...
i hOpe *yOu* uNderstAnd....

2006-08-01T06:15:00.000-07:00

ha ha...it has been a long tym since i post le wOrx...miss mE?.....
got new photOs.....taken during yEn tEng's biRthdAy [29/07/2006] .....

wAiting for [[jAsmine hU]] n [[zHu mIng]] in marina bay MrT station...

tHey cAme...FINALLY...n we toOk a bUs to eat BBQ steAmBoAt...

piNkies wrap up wif aluminum foil...loOk like Jas de ....

comparE n cOntrast....LOL

oYa...fireWORKS....

toOk pics of myself....

cUte ma???...LOL...bhb...

miss aLL of yOu...

lOve all of yOu...

muacks!!!

2006-06-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

went to TM to watch Xmen 3 wif sop,jill, jing yang n young sheng...

eat lots of popCORNS......

after the movie.....we went to hoUgang Mall .....saw mr ng....

took NEOprints....

HaHa =]

2006-06-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

to .....
i'm realli sorry...realli realli veri sorry....
didn't mean it....feel realli guilty...it shouldn't hav happen...
its all my fault...

2006-06-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

nice and happie day today...ha ha....play badminton...no...play coughing game...i cough more than i play...ha ha...

2006-06-02T07:15:00.000-07:00

Cameron Highland is a nice place...cooling n relaxing....nthing much to tok abt actually, spent most of the tym in the bus...puke in the bus once [yuck!!!!]....
since nthing to say den show pics ba....

....All Of Us....

jaS, loo yee, soPhia, iRis, ME and Juv

Don, Juv, lOO YEE, jAs, Wei JiE, LeWis, ME and sop

2006-05-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

haiz...result so poor...like shit like tat...ha ha...onli got 2 A lei...wad is this lo...first tym so lousy... but nvm...wadever over is over...i m still happy and i still love all of you...ha ha...
and today play badminton...so super shiok...too long nv play...frm the beginning not good liao...now worse....HAIZ...i know i m jus not good...no matter in badminton,basketball or aything...no choice...i m born like tis...no matter how hard i try, i m still a burden to the my grp...i m realli sorrie...next tym dun play le la...dun hai you all le ....ok?!...happie?!...

2006-05-16T22:55:00.000-07:00

holiday is soOOOO.....super super sian....nthing better to do...go study will feel sleepy....go out no money....ha ha....anyway u all still mus ask mi out ok...waiting for you all to call....

2006-05-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

Yoz....the happie crystal is back....laugh n smile...chocolate and candies.....ha ha ha.....
exam is over! exam is over! EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

2006-04-22T03:16:00.000-07:00

sorrie ppl....too busy to post liao...haiz...feeling veri sian...no tym to do wad i like, No more smile n laugh...they don't help anymore...sometym i realli feel like crying on somebody shoulder but i noe they got their probs too....so sad...crying alone in the bathroom and in bed....haiz

2006-03-17T00:35:00.000-08:00

sec 3 camp is super ultra fun...so exciting...
jump JUMP jump....bomb BOMB bomb...keep jumping and bombing....
love the pinaapples, watermelons, honeydew and my INSTRUCTORS [ Aundrey & Tingfeng ]...
they are super cute and nice...ha ha

2006-02-26T02:22:00.000-08:00

went to flag selling yesterdae...cllected $204...within 6 hours.....so happy...but hor....i getting veri busy this few days....tired...haiz...got a presentation to the whole sch tomolo sia...veri gan jiong...lol....dun worry ppl...i will still stay happy ...n take good care of myself...haha

2006-02-04T07:22:00.000-08:00

today went to plaza sing to watch xiao hai bu ben 2...nice show...touching...touched my heart...i bursted into tears...juz like the turned on tap...cannot turn off...tears keep flowing out frm my eyes...
bought a zinc sling bag olso...a little big for mi but nice jiu hao....ha ha

2006-01-29T08:57:00.000-08:00

[ my dearly mUmMy n mi ] < do we loOk aLike????????????????

OMG....you guys are soOoOo...sweet...thx man...i realli love all of u so much...so gan dong...dunno how to bao da you all...mayb can yi shen xiang xu....lol....unless u all dun wan mi la...ha ha...however...thx for everything...without love i can still survive but without you guys[ my friends n family ]...i may jus die off...thx for making my life so beautiful...thx for standing by my side n support mi when i m down....thx for everything u all have done for mi....love all of u always...^_^

2006-01-27T03:04:00.000-08:00

my birthday celebration in pizza hut...with swensen's ice-cream cake....chocolate flavour de...so nice...and it look.... nice hor...it tastes nice olso...ha ha....
my birthday wishes:

1) all the ppl ard mi to stay happy n healthy

2) all of us...no matter who u are....pass our o'level with flying colours

3) [nOt TeLLiNg u]

2006-01-24T17:41:00.000-08:00

ha ha...tis pic is taken in sportlink...lame rite...

anyway...3e3'06....first tym see my class de ppl soOOoo...gan jiong...[see liao gan dong nia]... we hav really try our best le...so if lose the competition...olso no choice...we will still stay as a class n stay coolz...i'm loving u...3e3'06...muack*...

2006-01-04T07:36:00.001-08:00

back to sch...getting more n more busy...missed my meals sometym...can jian fei...haha...
i m happy being busy...cos i love wad i m doing now...though i m veri tired...i noe it is worth it...
better den mi having nthing to do n start to hu si luan xiang...haha

2005-12-31T06:41:00.000-08:00

feeling much better now...cos i got lots of things to do...so nice...
holiday is finally ending...going back to sch...^_^
in another 1 hour plus...2006 will arrive...
lots of wishes n hope for the new year...ha ha...

2005-12-28T07:52:00.000-08:00

not feeling good these days...i tot it was over but it isn't...my FULL-STOP is useless...
feel like there is a knot in my heart...who is able to open it for me???...mayb it is you...mayb it is not...i need a brainwash now...cos everytym i think back...the knots get pulled tighter...it hurts...
i jus hope i will feel better when sch reopen n i have lots of works to do so tat i dun have tym to think back...it may seem tat i m running away frm reality but b4 my wound heal...tis is the onli thing i can do to make myself feel better...
letting fate decide everything now...no more strength left to fight anymore...so jus walk 1 step see 1 step ba...

2005-12-25T02:38:00.000-08:00

MeRrY X'mAs...all the best ppl...=)

2005-12-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

a brand new year cuming....i m putting a FULL-STOP to every unhappy stuff tat happen in this year(2005)...
____to all those tat i have offended...or in some way i have upset u...i m realli sorrie...though i noe saying sorrie now dosen't help but i hope it make you n i feel better....
____to all my friends...all the best to the cuming year....loving u all always...
____to those tat i hav not met...hope to b friends with u all.....^_^

--------YEAR 2005...CHAPTER CLOSED-------

2005-11-28T20:12:00.000-08:00

everything is settled now.....feeling relief n happy.....hope tat i will b happy for the rest of my life......=)......

2005-11-27T07:15:00.000-08:00

came back frm New ZeaLand yesterdae.....a realli beautiful place.....having a great tym there.......hope to have a chance to go to New ZeaLand again.............
feeling confused now.....a question in my mind keep popping out......i myself is unsure of the answer to that question......

2005-11-17T06:58:00.000-08:00

Going to New ZeaLand le....but not feeling excited at all.....is like as if nothing gonna happen....haha.....
getting more n more irritated by ppl who like to nag.....nag like nobody business sia.....wad is tis...make mi flare up den u all noe......but the happy thing todae is tat Pei yi, sop,iris,yen teng,sam,des, kc, kah wai,milfred and mi played basketball for the whole dae lei....frm 11am to 7pm.....although in between got wasting,eating n resting tym la....but alreadi consider play veri long lo.......haha........

2005-11-10T23:10:00.000-08:00

yoz....my appeal........success........omg......can't believe it....so happy.....

2005-11-09T07:32:00.000-08:00

finally pulled up my courage and try my luck once again....ps2...class 3e3.....my last hope........
if realli cannot i olso not choice n have to go to 3e2....haiz...but at least i fight for my future...i worked hard 4 it....no regret.......that is bu xing zhong de da xing.......ha ha......just stay happy ba.........=)

2005-11-03T23:45:00.000-08:00

wen to school to check which class i will b going next year....
to my HORROR......I m in 3e2....OMG
30 gals n 10 boys.....ying sen yang suai...
will i b happi in this class...not likely lo...
HAIZ...SIANDED!!!!!

2005-10-31T23:57:00.000-08:00

todae went to buy clothes....aiyo...veri sianz sia....i hate shopping....lol
why do ppl like shopping huh???......dun understand....
just plainly walking n seeing things tat are the same.....haha

2005-10-30T01:13:00.000-08:00

last decision.....PS2 plus elective art...hope can go in....so scared cannot go in.....
it is holidae.....it dosen't seems to b holidae...still got lots of stuff to do...
lots of BBQ.....later fever again....(choi!!!)....haha.......

2005-10-28T01:55:00.000-07:00

feeling sick lately.....the whole dae just thinking of sleeping.....why like tat.....no energy...
so tired...haha....but still can online.....haha

2005-10-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

went to the place i hate most to eat todae......the foods...are so disgusting.....
it taste like.....eEk....think liao wanna vomit....so disgusting....
next tym dun ask mi go dere...ok??....eileen,jasmine,xiao xian,juvenal n sop....
it is like.....OMG.....haha....
but they feel guilty....so gan dong nia....my friends are so good to mi...love u all so much...
can't bear to let u all go any more...i will use a rope to tied u all together n keep u all with mi all my life.....haha....juz joking....haha

2005-10-25T01:11:00.000-07:00

yey.....so happy...change mi blogskin le...Winnie pooh pooh de lei......^_^...so sweet hor....LOVE IT SO MUCH....so cute....

2005-07-22T20:51:00.000-07:00

aiyo..nothing to tell actually...sianz...actually people like cherlyn, eileen and janice...you guys stop thinking tat i like someone can? believe it or not, i really like NOBODY now...ohya i like my...DEAR father, mother, brothers, sisters, friends...HAHA !! see i noe one of my wish (stop crapping and keep quiet) will never come true...

2005-07-08T20:40:00.000-07:00

feeling so sad lately...ah ya i also dunno why...this few weeks very blur but today is very very blur...when cuming to sch, i took the wrong bus and i onli realise it when i reach Serangoon rd...diaox...then i walk to Rio Vista...later to SSS...after tat bo bian then take taxi...haix...stupid hor?...i dun ren lu de...haha..