Monday, December 18, 2006
feeling damn fucking sian now...i hav ruin someone's life jus bcos of a stupid little thing of mine...n now there is nthing i can do to help...KANNINA JI BYE!!!...wad the hell m i doing n thinking at tat tym sia...fucking du lan wif myself now...
Loving you...
Sunday, December 17, 2006
last two days was tiring...was doing ritual for two funerals...sat was in tampinese while sun in seng kang...the one in tampinese came out to b my aunts' frens and the one in seng kang was jackies's grandma...i m actually doing ritual for my fren grandma...wad a small world...i hope it doesn't happen agn...
gonna work tml le...now tat i m busy wif work...homework n attending to funerals stuff...i hav no more energy to think abt bgr...
sometym i think i m jus trying to make myself damn busy n tired so tat i wun't think abt all those things but wadever it is...i m jus trying to b happie...
Loving you...
Saturday, December 09, 2006
wasn't in good mood tis few days...as u guys can see...i may b laughing but the veri next moment my heart sank...there was once...i broke dwn when working...i cried..LiLeng saw it...but stil i have to clean my face n put on a fake smile cos i m working...costomers saw mi,my eyes and nose red...they asked if i m ok...i said i m having a flu...
i tried hard but i jus can't seems to get somethings out of my mind...frankly...i miss those happy times...everything seems to b so beautiful...when i tot of these...my heart aches n i wanna cry...
there isn't anything i can do now...i had made tat decision...i follow through it...hope time wil help to fade all the feelings away...hope tat i realli is able to b tat happie crystal u guys used to hang out wif agn...hope tat i wUn b crying agn for the rest of the time...dunno why i m so useless...tis is the first tym i cried so mani tym for the same reason...haiz...
Loving you...
